agh

Had the worst dream last night...after working my butt off for my finals, my grades were as follows: C-, C-, D. None of my professors were the same (one was Maestro Franco, who I had in 8th grade!!) and I was sitting in my grandparents' old apartment when I got them.

Standard panic dream, I guess. Because I woke up with a standard level 9 panic attack this morning.

I let myself relax and have a couple of margaritas last night. And am now angry that I let myself do that. I need to calm the hell down and just work, but I don't know what to work on first: the creative stuff that ebbs and flows, or the non-creative stuff that I should probably bang out ASAP. aaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! *bangs head on desk*

horoscope:
For now, at least, ambitions exceed abilities. Do one thing, and
do it well. You're already recognized as a creature of wisdom, and
today's actions should prove it beyond all doubt.

I wish!

agh

Had the worst dream last night...after working my butt off for my finals, my grades were as follows: C-, C-, D. None of my professors were the same (one was Maestro Franco, who I had in 8th grade!!) and I was sitting in my grandparents' old apartment when I got them.

Standard panic dream, I guess. Because I woke up with a standard level 9 panic attack this morning.

I let myself relax and have a couple of margaritas last night. And am now angry that I let myself do that. I need to calm the hell down and just work, but I don't know what to work on first: the creative stuff that ebbs and flows, or the non-creative stuff that I should probably bang out ASAP. aaaaaaaaaaaahhhh! *bangs head on desk*

horoscope:
For now, at least, ambitions exceed abilities. Do one thing, and
do it well. You're already recognized as a creature of wisdom, and
today's actions should prove it beyond all doubt.

I wish!

*sigh*

Going to attempt to work outside...we'll see how this goes. I'd like to try and go to Dak's group's show at 6, but I don't know why. I should stay home and do work. We'll see. I might as well enjoy time that zil is not in the house. She's cooking something that smells positively vile right now. I'd be outside at the moment but I require the bathroom, and some evil person is showering...grrr.

*sigh*

Going to attempt to work outside...we'll see how this goes. I'd like to try and go to Dak's group's show at 6, but I don't know why. I should stay home and do work. We'll see. I might as well enjoy time that zil is not in the house. She's cooking something that smells positively vile right now. I'd be outside at the moment but I require the bathroom, and some evil person is showering...grrr.

so much for the best laid plans of mice and men

now that pretty much everyone has bailed on me for Parkfest, I have bailed on it. I feel so mixed about it...I'm pissed that I bought the ticket, and wonder if going to T's tonight instead is the right decision. Even though I convinced Diorella to come out tonight, which is going to be AWESOME. I just don't know. I always feel like I'm going to miss something. Nothing sucks more than being at a festival alone, but I did kind of want to see Dashboard. I don't know. we'll see. Have to go and get ready now anyway.

so much for the best laid plans of mice and men

now that pretty much everyone has bailed on me for Parkfest, I have bailed on it. I feel so mixed about it...I'm pissed that I bought the ticket, and wonder if going to T's tonight instead is the right decision. Even though I convinced Diorella to come out tonight, which is going to be AWESOME. I just don't know. I always feel like I'm going to miss something. Nothing sucks more than being at a festival alone, but I did kind of want to see Dashboard. I don't know. we'll see. Have to go and get ready now anyway.