FLAILING NOW

[offbalance]

OH, DEAN. DEAN. DEAN!!!!!!

Mowing the lawn. Joey Ramone's "A Wonderful World" playing. The sun shining and the colors bright and mom sandwiches and a hot girlfriend who totally loves you. And Mom sandwiches. And your dad dying peacefully in his sleep.

And the crushing realization that you're a drunken screwup asshat. That you don't get Sammy as a best friend. That you actually made a big, positive difference in your other world, and how important that is. (Quote: "How do you like that, baby? We're civilians!")

Kripke, you made me cry like, three times (The LOOK! On his face when he saw his mom all alive !!! I DIED. That whole scene in fact - dead.). I also applaud you for not doing this storyline for the holidays. It would have been SO easy to do even more of a "Dean Winchester's Wonderful Life" at the holidays, but you resisted. Good Kripke - you get a cookie. :D

The scene where the whole family is pleading with him to not go back to the other reality? I may need therapy. And Y!Sam insisting on a ride-along "Because you're my brother!!" <3 Oh, this show.

Couldn't get through Grey's, am finishing tomorrow. Sleep now.