I don't want to talk about things we've gone through

[offbalance]

don't move don't talk out of time don't think don't worry everything's just fine. just fine. I feel numb.

And I do. That song used to be my failsafe during the worst of Junior high school. It's been running through my head today, mixed with "The Bright elusive butterfly of love" (don't ask me why, but blame CBS-Fm), "The Show Must Go On" (Q 104 played it this morning. And the problem with that song is that when I hear it once I have to listen to it again and again.), and the song mentioned in the subject line.

I'm a mess. I am too many things at once to think. Everything and nothing make sense.

I have an overwhelming desire to watch "A Charlie Brown Christmas."
Someone mentioned it on one of my zinelists and I remembered how much I love that show.

Plus, to make things worse, the office is insane today. Absolutely crazy.

Someone hug me?

Comments

[nrrrdygirl.livejournal.com]

*HUG*...what's wrong? Is it cuz of 9/11? I just wonder...

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*
yes. it's that and some other things related to it.

If there was ever a point in my life that I wanted to fast forward, I think this would be it.
Trouble is, I can't find the remote!

[hermionesviolin.livejournal.com]

*hug*

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[traces.livejournal.com]

*serves up pink fluffy cocktail, complete w/ice cream in pretty, pretty glass w/bendy straw*

some days are better than others, eh?

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*accepts drink with big smile & hugs trace with thanks*

some days you hear a voice, taking you to another place. Some days..are better than others.

[zyll.livejournal.com]

so I disappeared into the wasteland called exams. Done tomorrow, noon-ish and my nap should be done in the evening...phone call, 10ish your time?

and of course *hugs*

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

sounds good to me. I'll let you know if I end up going out, but it seems unlikely. Talk to you then!

[aprilmorning.livejournal.com]

its very spooky outside... i understand what you feel.. everything is just.. off.

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

exactly. and as a writer, I'm frustrated that I am unable to describe the feeling as anything but "off", but I'm at a loss for words. Everyone is just so...subdued in a nervous way. And I've had conversations with people on the phone at work who call in from other cities and they're all interested in what new york is like today. and I don't know what to tell them.

I am just grateful that tomorrow will be here soon. What's tomorrow? Just tomorrow.

[aprilmorning.livejournal.com]

I understand the writers block too.. check out my journal.. I tried to sum it up best I could.

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

you actually did a great job with explaining it - especially with everyone on the train looking out the window. On the Q, I don't think that many people did, which surprised me. And your description of Times Square gave me chills. And it reminded me of the scene from the beginning of Vanilla Sky (which as a film I thought was sloppy, but with an interesting premise.)

It's difficult to describe the unthinkable.

from an e-mail from my mom on Sunday:

[hermionesviolin.livejournal.com]

Garrison Keillor (Prairie Home Companion -- WGBH 12:00-2:00pm (or other public radio station) is doing a special on NY in honor of 9/11. But he said he can't really comment on it so he's running segments from old shows which took place in NY just so people can enjoy NY. He just did an incredible riff to the tune of Mockingbird about where he'd take his girl -- which include the Blue Man Group and everything else I've ever heard of.
If you get in, you might enjoy it cuz you were there recently.
At the beginning he said he hasn't been back to downtown since 9/10. He said he didn't know why but he couldn't face the city knownig there was this big hole where the towers used to be.
He said "maybe it's because I'm a writer, and writer's use words, and when there are no words, we'd just as soon not deal"
I thought of you - and Robert's concern that you didn't think about it.
Of course, it's not your town, or your towers, or your loved ones who died,
but also it is awfully hard to put into words -- and if it can't be put into words, it's hard to think about.
Anyway, I thought it was a cool thought.

[shackledangel.livejournal.com]

*pouncehuggleglomp* ^___________^

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*huggles back*

[femmedyke.livejournal.com]

*hug*

everything is just so WEIRD today. I feel you, girlie. I really do.

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[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* thanks. It is/was weird. But now its tomorrow. A whole new day and a whole new year. Time to dust off hope and take it off the shelf, yanno?