That's it. I'm going to bed.

[offbalance]

Things that suck:
* Work. Not the people, they're always divine, but today I was up to my eyebrows in paper and the most stressed I've been in ages. Thank GOD tomorrow is Friday, seriously.

*My inability to be several places at once next Thursday. My life would be SO much easier if I could accomplish that. Next Friday, too.

*I haven't had the ability to churn out anything for Write Club this week, mostly due to lack of sleep. And the irony of it all is that this week I wanted to take some time to rest and write. Ha. I shouldn't complain, though, because I have a chapter or two more outlined, I just have to get the spark to connect them all, and will meet my page minimum easily, possibly even the maximum. I just need more time. Why isn't there more time?

*I've been wondering where all my time goes lately (and money, but that's another rant for another time). I feel like I have no time to be quiet, to just BE. I love my socialization schedule, but sometimes I think I need to stop the world every so often.

* There's melancholia that's been going around. It's worse than the bird flu. Symptoms include self-doubt, panic, insecurities run amok, and general despair. I've been fighting with it, and from what I can tell, so have more than a few around me. *sigh* We all need hugs, naps, and tea, methinks. I wonder if its the shift in seasons that throws us all out of balance, zapping our creativity and confidence. (Or at the very least, mine).

* How late it is and how little I've gotten accomplished this evening.

*Friday's horoscope for pisces: Look at what's directly in front of you. Deal with the situation as it actually is. You keep thinking about how things ought to be, how you wish they were, how they might have turned out or how they could yet change. That's all very interesting but it's not very useful. The secret of success, this weekend, involves recognising the reality. You can't do that unless you are also willing to find some way to feel good about it. Once you have learned to love it, though, you will somehow understand how you can change it.
Say it with me now: FUCK YOU, CAINER!!

Comments

[bloo-stocking.livejournal.com]

I agree that the melancholia can be attributed to the change in seasons. Women seem to crave comfort foods at this time of year. (Me, I crave comfort foods year-round.) Also, at least for B and I, we feel a sense of despair (maybe that's the wrong word) because of the devastation after Katrina and the impending devastation of Rita. Plus, the war in Iraq, our incompetent government, fears over the economy, gas prices, etc., etc. So, I think a lot of people feel the way you and I feel right now. Oh god, where's the chocolate?

[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*hands you chocolate*

I've gotten to the point where I have to keep large events like that out of my daily thoughts to a certain degree, otherwise I am literally paralyzed by fear and anxiety. I just focus on what I *can* fix, things like voting for someone I believe in and how to donate to the Katrina fund and things like that. It's so hard not to get bogged down.

[drewness.livejournal.com]

I hear ya on the melancholia. I had an attack of it this week too. Bleah. *BIG-ASS HUGS*

[offbalance.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's kind of the suck. *hugs*

[drewness.livejournal.com]

More than "kind of", I think. Edge-ing into completely the suck for my money.

*YET MORE BIG-ASS HUGS*

[feminist-poet.livejournal.com]

I am so there with you with the melancholia - *HUGS YOU*

[offbalance.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[blergeatkitty.livejournal.com]

Oh, you think THAT'S fuck you cainery:

"The penny is dropping. The mist is clearing. The fuzzy shape is getting a clear outline. You are now making sense of something that has long bewildered you. That's encouraging but is it also useful? Will anything change as a result of what you now understand? That rather depends on how well you understand it and how willing you are to try a different approach in the light of what you have learned. You've got to do more than just change the way you think. You have to alter the way you act, this weekend, too."

I also want to point out that I'll probably be pulling an all-nighter on Sunday because I'll be going out all weekend and won't have time to write stuff until then. I started something new on the subway yesterday, though...maybe I can flesh THAT out.

[offbalance.livejournal.com]

I think we're in mutual fuck off territory, here.

I need sleep. My creative functions have to shut down to feed the main power supply when I'm overtired. I feel like a zombie.